So many things, so little time.
I know I have tremendous worth. I don’t think that’s something I’ve ever truly doubted. Every now and then out of a want for attention I may say otherwise to my friends, but the truth is that I’ve always felt important in this world. Maybe it’s a result of a sheltered upbringing, but it is what it is. The point is that no one has ever taken that away from me and I’ll never lose my sense of worth.
Is it really so much to ask for a few words? Would others actually believe I’m not worth a few words? I’m not a conceited person but I believe that I’m worth at least that. I’ve spent the past months getting over the fact that someone else thought that I wasn’t good enough. The thing is, I am good enough. I know I am. After getting out of a long relationship the easiest way to handle it was to accept the reasoning that the problem was me. But the problem was not me, and it never was. I think the important thing to understand is that just because you may not be who someone else wants doesn’t mean that there is something inherently wrong with you. It just means the two of you aren’t right for each other. Boy, if the world understood this can you imagine how much drama might be spared?
But then again, even though I understand it I don’t always subscribe to it. And I think thats just part of human nature. We want things that don’t always make sense and relationships tend to be the most common example of this. There’s most likely not a solution for this. We are who we are and very rarely can that change.
I never got a chance to show you who I was, and I guess that’s my fault in the end. But like I said, I know my worth. And I feel as if I had that you may have done things different. I’m not going to dwell on possibilities that may have been, however. I’ve done enough of that for one lifetime. If someone else comes along I wont hold back. I wont show my reservations. Should you (or anyone else) ever want to see the real me, I’ll still be him. But I’ll be honest, I’m not holding my breath. And that’s a good thing.
I don’t think I’ll ever stop being a romantic though.
